does anyone else find it immensely comforting to have someone touching you? not like poking or tickling you or like sexually just feeling some other person being beside you and like your elbows or legs or something are touching and you’re like oh this person is alive too
written by (via wanduring)
i hate relationships. i do. you just never know when things can take a turn for the worst. Like all the bullshit is made up in our heads, time spent over analyzing situations and converstaions creates major issues.
I know we aren’t breaking up right now, but when i saw you today i had high doubts. we stood in the pouring rain, you told me nothing lasts forever, and i realise that. i told you i’m not good at dealing with loosing people. you told me you know how it feels. you stopped me in the middle of the path and kissed me. you asked me if i was ok. i glanced down and said yes. you suggested we took a break, you aren’t in the right headspace and have no motivation. i told you i’m sorry and that id be here.
You told me i’m young, i should take this less seriously. next year you’ll be 18 and going out, drinking, without me. You don’t see that working if we’re together. I don’t see it either but i still want you, i need you.
I’m selfish. I always need somebody. Once i’m with someone i cant see myself with anybody else. I don’t want to make you feel like your trapped.
You just said we need to chill out a bit more, take it slow, i agree. because almost every time i see you we always do shit that escalates quickly and relationships isn’t always about that. You said we need to just chill and have fun and enjoy it while it lasts, i agree.
It just makes my head spin. I think things are ok. I just need to keep an open mind. I’m aware you’re depressed and i can’t fix you. I’m sorry, I love you. It’s just so hard getting attached to someone and realising they won’t be around for much longer. Things will change and i just need to be ready for it and accept and move on, and enjoy this while it lasts.
it’s sad how people who are so kind and lovely hate themselves
“I still love you” is the saddest fucking sentence in the whole world
Never Ever EVER look back through conversations w people who used to mean a whole LOT to ya Bc i guarantee that you’ll end up crying like a little bitch nd eating straight up hot chocolate powder